It's just that one area of life that I constantly find myself being unable to come out tops in...

It's not a good feeling, to be always playing second fiddle. It's an instrument that I've found myself playing all my life, and I'm getting really good at it. Is there a spot on the Singapore Youth Orchestra for 'Second Fiddle'?

Nor is it healthy to have to keep wondering and pondering about stupid trivial little things (which are actually behemoths in my world, just that they seem so ... so juvenile.) when I should be doing proper things with my time, instead.

Should I even be thinking about them now? Or maybe I just need to get my priorities and thoughts straightened out.

But how could I do it when there're so many hooks latched onto the bugger that I call a heart which keep biting in so deep and are so hard to release.

I guess sometimes everyone just needs to know how much they matter.

And maybe it's really stupid to embark on an endeavour, to set out on a journey, that's more impossible than travelling to pluto, that's already a lost cause,

because the destination's already caught up in another, and you're by no means important, destined to be relegated to the side, cast aside akin to something insignificant, and unimportant.

but I get the strangest feeling that you've gone away ...