One of the most amazing and beautiful things about the human mind, is its ability to store memories. Memories are such powerful things; evoking emotions inside us that can create all sorts of effects - inspiring us to take ourselves to the next level, making us feel regret at wasted opportunities, putting a smile on our faces as we reminisce on great times.

Then again, living in the past is nothing compared to living in the then and now. We've gotta focus on the tasks at hand - and with the hectic schedules belonging to us becoming increasingly packed with this and that, how can we even allow ourselves the time to dwell on what has already happened as compared to what is happening more? But as any amnesiac would attest to, we are nothing without our memories. Amnesia is of course an exaggerated way of putting things, but some things in life are unforgettable and even if we do not want to be preoccupied with them, losing such memories would be like losing integral pieces of ourselves, as we are unable to remember the experiences we've gone through and the feelings associated along with them, feelings that made us more human and brought our plane of existence down to such a real level, being able to share this life with those that mean so much to us.

Maybe that's why some people get rid of past records, messages, items, objects, and everything - to stop themselves from painful reminders. But these things hold so much meaning - rather than relinquishing them, we should learn to live with them.

The then and

I wish I'd made it clearer.
I wish I hadn't had to keep those secrets.
I wish I could've made you understand.
I wish you could've been more mine than theirs.

the now

Through it all, i've made my mistakes
I'll stumble and fall, but I mean these words

I want you to know
with everything I won't let this go
These words are my heart and soul
I'll hold onto this moment you know
Cause I bleed my heart out to show
that I won't let go

jia you.