a waste of multiple hours
feeling sour and resentful at the end
using up time and energy
obligations of a group; the pull is too strong
what do you get out of it
nothing but anger and disappoinment

you think they've got your back
why then do they let you waste your time
again and again
it's nothing - they say, it's nothing - everyone else says
just a few sychronized pictures put together
no freakin' point of losing one's emotions
just for the sake of something so juvenile

time is of the essence
time is worth its weight in gold
and this usage of time could very well cost you the future
but what did you use it for
you squandered it on a session
that made you even worse off than before
they don't really bother
after all, it's just another one in dozens
but sometimes it's not what you can't stand

the lapse of information;
the hanging in the gap;
the frustrations the expectations
the attitudes of the people around you

sometimes it's what they show you
sometimes it's what they say
sometimes it's the actions the behaviour the irksomeness
you have your own standards
you have your own code
others may not be able to follow it but;
that doesn't mean
you should just give it up.

you don't wanna disappoint;
you don't wanna leave them hanging
but sometimes all the trying
is simply not worth the sighing

and so - an arrangement of reparations might be in order.

ITSNOTSUCHASMALLTHINGAFTERALL